heimwee

can one develop heimwee naar (for) a country, where one lived just for couple of years? And where is actually my home (home country)? I think it is where you feel good and cosy, and you know your way there and it does not irritate you, because any place would have negative and positive aspects.
The country I was born and raised and lived until my 20th is not a bad country, my family and friends are still there, and which language will I master at the same level? But still, I always dreamed of going somewhere else. And I (still) never regreted leaving it.
Maybe I will be able to answer all these questions in some 20-30 years. For now I'm convinced, my home is where I am longing to be. This feeling is like Love- you can not even say what exactly it is, that attracts you. It's just good being there and thinking about it, when you are away.